Fears again

When will I stop writing about fear? I guess that'll be when i have noe left.

Ya anyway its been a long while now since i've been facing and facing fears as they come. So now after successfully and unsuccessfully facing my feras as they come I'm listing out my major fears so that I can better fac them..:)


1. Fear of letting my innermost thoughts being known. It's alright to let one's innermost feelings come up to the surface because clarity and transparency bring amazing freedom and lightness.

2. Fear of expressing in any way feelings or thoughts through actions or otherwise which directly and completely contradict the feelings of the other person before the other person. The truth is the truth wehther expressed or unexpressed so it's perfectly OK to be assertive.

3. Fear of being judged or branded or criticized. Being judged by X reflects only X's thoughts. Every person is simply talking about himself or herself in every word he or she speaks. If someone's judgement effects my thoughts then i am only falling prey to someone else's weakness - judging in the first place.

4. Fear of offending set societal norms. All of us do not know who we are and so we imagine ourselves to be what we are conmditioned to think we are right form our birth. Sometimes we do make conscious choices but the point still remains that we still keep thinking that we are what society in general thinks we are and that we are bound by society. But it is OK to do what I really want to do because society is an illusion in the first place. And an illusion is never consistent - it is not even a shaqdow - it is like water which keeps changing its sshape depending on the vessel. Doing what I really want to do is also not reality but it is atleast a shadow with a definite shape which may lead me to myself.

" Do only what your heart desires because they'll damn you if you do and they'll damn you if you don't", Eleanor Roosevelt

5. Fear of accepting myself as I am. Whatever i am there is no denying that I am what i am. The truth just is and i just am. There is no point in commenting or not accepting. Acceptance is the first rung in the ladder of growth. Only the now exists and by letting go of the past and embracing the present, I can create the future. That is what i mean by - the future is now.

Well I'm getting pretty bored writing all this so let me call it quit for now .:)